Good Enough? That Could Be a Problem.
Gotta admit – I’ve had Gomer on the brain for quite a while now. If you’re wondering Gomer who?, read the backstory on last week’s blog.
As I read the Bible I’m forever trying to imagine myself right there – in some Israelite’s sandals, on some dusty trail with Jesus, or – my coolest thought ever – in one of the first churches described in the book of Acts. Can you imagine your church membership jumping by 300% in one day? That would be awesome.
And then . . . there’s Gomer.
How would I feel to be – well, like we said last week – an object lesson called WHAT NOT TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
God commissioned Hosea, a godly prophet (good point #1) to marry (good point #2) Gomer. What more could she ask for? Apparently, she did ask for (and search for) more – a lot more. She kept leaving him for other men. To where the grass seemed greener.
WHY? Here is my LIST OF FIVE POSSIBLE REASONS A WOMAN MIGHT LEAVE A PROPHET (pastor/preacher/clergy):
- His paycheck wasn’t enough
- She thought his style of partying was boring and restrictive
- She didn’t read the handbook on HOW TO BE A PROPHET’S WIFE
- She was jealous of his relationship with God
- She didn’t think she was good enough for him
Hmmm…. She didn’t think she was good enough for him.
A quick review in my prayer journal this week might or might not contain these words: God, you love me. I’m still working on comprehending that. But, I really do need to get it. (And soon would be fantastic.)
Let’s pretend (wink, wink) I really did write that this week. Let’s suppose that I could totally imagine myself as not good enough – for any number of people, especially GOD! I mean, how many times does God need to forgive me for certain things over and over and over . . . . What would there be in me that God would love?
Yet – more important than that is this: IF I REALLY COULD GET IT THAT GOD LOVES ME, WHAT DIFFERENCE WOULD THAT MAKE IN MY LIFE?
I don’t know if Gomer could ever really comprehend Hosea’s love. And, if she did, what difference would that have made? Would she have curtailed her extra curricular activities?
But what if we (ummm…….I) tried to operate in this life confident of God’s love for us. What difference would that make?
The way I see it, I would have to give up a whole lot to actively live in God’s love. I would have to give up:
- trying to be good enough for God – or anybody else, for that matter
Well, maybe some things are best when left behind.
Because when things are left behind, that creates space in our heart to be filled with other things. For example . . . God’s love.